NYC - The City of Lights (The End)

        What word makes all exchange students cry? It only happens once, but it is the worst once in a lifetime. WHY you ask? Well because as an exchange student you get to build a NEW LIFE for yourself and you have to give it away at the end. Can you imagine that?

        No, so I will paint a picture for you.... OK first imagine your life now. What do you do each day, every day. The same old stuff. You get up in the same bed, go to the same Career/School, and then you basically go home. Now normally you see the same people each day, your friends you hang out with. They already know you. All people around you have an idea of who you are. No changing without being a "fake," or really lucky.

        Now think if you could start anew, in a new place, with all new people. When everyone around you doesn't care what your old life was like. They just want to know who you are now. You can change and become who you want too.

        Then you get used to that person you became. That is the new you! So whats the problem.... Oh yes, you forgot that you have to go back. Eventually, that was my favorite word, because I truly never thought the end would come. I was such an idiot, BUT it did come. Now I know I have to put myself in my old life when I changed so much abroad. I mean I left the USA always wearing dresses, and I didn't even touch them in Italy. I am personally scared to death because I know there are lots of thick-headed Americans I know that will judge me on the fact that I changed. So I just have to not care. I am really good at that too!

        Now moving on, the word that we all dread is "RETURN." I have just experienced it about 2 week ago. When I was taking my last plane ride with Intercultural, when I saw the USA (NY skyline) from a different point-of-view. It was different because I knew that we had both changed. New buildings go up each day, the America I knew was gone. I had changed because the Brystal I left there was naive.  BTW it doesn't feel like I am back yet.... I am still speaking to much Italian inside my house for me to feel 100% me again. I think my transition has gone easier then other peoples, because I have my Italian Host Sisters with me. Grazie Mille Emi e Mary, Vi Amo!!! <3 They make it all bearable, because I have not felt the heart-sinking feeling that Italy has left me. Or really it is I who left Italy, unwillingly may I add.

        Of course I couldn't stay forever in Italy, I just had to enjoy the 10 months I was given. Now since returning to my beloved home country where I was reunited with my friend the hamburger and hot-dog, <3 Oh what love, I have been very content! I got to do many first(s) that I never did before leaving. Like I visited NYC with my girls, while enjoying the fact that my dad always kept his chin on the ground because, "I suddenly speak a foreign language now." *Thanks Dad, I really did not notice I was speaking Italian all year, I thought it was some kind of English dialect or something* Well anyway, we saw the City of Lights, and it was such a change for me! I was not prepared for how tall the buildings were, the ones in Italy were short....and not made of glass! A little side note: We had NYC's pizza and the girls were fascinated by how different it was from the Italian pizza. It is quite different, I guess you have to try it to know! - I think they liked it though! Bonus for the USA, because they thought all the food wood taste really bad! So far they have enjoyed it all! Except Mary doesn't appreciate the Skittles... OMG! She can't taste the rainbow!

        We all took a short trip to New Jersey, the state next to Pennsylvania. We went to Sandy Hook to see the lighthouse (Climbed to the top) and mainly to go swimming. The ocean is extremely different  compared to the Mediterranean Sea. (I only went swimming near the beaches one time before leaving the US, I am a pool person.) It was a nice little vacation before heading back to my house in PA, it helped create a buffer between my year abroad and the rest of my life in the USA. Which is a seriously long time.

        After doing 2 states in 2 days, we headed to PA. My home turf, the land of them country folk, the farmer tans and all..... That's where we have stayed so far, just chilling and enjoying the little things in life. EXCEPT, Emi and Mary are full blown Americans now, seriously Mary had an M&Ms dream, and Emi likes the food....Or can I say in love with the food!

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        Now for me, I know I have my life ahead of me. Thanks to AFS Intercultural I have figured out what I want to do. First I have to enroll myself back into Ship, my high school in the US. Then I have to graduate. Easy enough. Now after high school I am hoping to get accepted into The Air force Academy (Impossible to do may I add, but I like a challenge!) OR if I can not join that, I will enlist in the Air force. I am hoping to gain a backbone for when my real dream comes true. Working for the CIA as I want to help the relations abroad and put my second language to use. Of course I do have to go to college in between these two so I have even more experience. I do know what I want to learn also, so in the future you will see me studying up to be a police woman....... It is crazy how one small year abroad helped me find who I really am, one small year to help plan the rest of my life. Thank you AFS <3

SHOOT FOR THE STARS, YOU CAN SEE THEM, SO WHY NOT GRAB THEM?

~ XOXO Brystal ~

Almost Over !! :(

What is probably the worst and best week in June? Well unless you went abroad, I am sure you don't know. June is normally the month exchange student's start to really notice that they have to leave! June is the month you wanted at the beginning of your experience, but towards the end, you start to wish on stars that it would go slower. 

June. Yes, I noticed that June is over, and I am asking where did it go?? Now, I feel warm tingles as I think about my home in the United States. As I will be there in a few days....BUT, I feel an even stronger dread, that seems to get worse every single day to tell you the truth. If I could feel the color black, it would be this feeling. It is similar to your heart breaking every minute, and then repairing itself out of hope. Why? Well because I know I have 4 days left in Italy, including today. I know that I will leave and never be able to come back for a year again, unless I move here. 

So why does June/July bring these feelings? Why do all exchange student's start to feel these sensations then? In my opinion it is because of the "End-of-the-year orientation." When Intercultura/AFS told us that we basically have to leave, or else. (I am pretty sure some people are attempting to just hide themselves and 'forget' to go on the plane.) They also tell you about the reverse culture shock you might feel when you return. I hear it is worse the the culture shock at the beginning! Kind of nervous! It basically means that you grew a custom to your host country's culture and you get shocked to see you own. 

Even more sad, they make you talk about your experience as if it already ended. Yes. I know, because I went to mine about a week ago. 

It was in Salerno! (The SAME PLACE I went to in October for the first orientation) This time I had so much fun, because I knew more people, I have more friends, and more importantly, I speak Italian now! ;-) 

So, the entire time was basically us speaking about the good and bad times of our experience. We did many activities. Some, including a game where we stood in a circle, and kissed our hands how we wanted. THEN, how ever we kissed our hand, we had to do the same to the person next to us. Yes, I kissed a girl.  I think it was to demonstrate how we all changed culturally, we are all more open to do/try new things.

Or we did time lines that had the line representing how Good/Bad that month was. At one point we sat all in a room, and someone read a paper and we all had time to experience what we did through-out our year, again. (Like with your memory) I totally shed a tear. They were talking about family, and I thought first of my host family then my american family. It showed me how much I grew to really care about them, people who were strangers to me a few months ago. (4 months ago to be exact) 

So I hope you get the point, we talked a lot and it opened my eyes! I have to leave ITALY! Why.... Perché.... ??? I have asked this enough times already, I constantly am finding things I love about Italy more then America.... I feel like I am the only American that doesn't want to return, I fell in love with the Italian culture. Now I am being dragged towards an airport, in handcuffs, forced on a plane home. Well that's how I feel. The only thing that makes me feel like I have to go back is that fact that my host sisters are going with me. Plus I haven't seen my family in a year, but to tell you the truth, I dont think they would notice if I stayed another 4-60 months. We have a special bond, strong! I know I will see them eventually <3 (Hi mom if your reading this, know it's you!) 

Anyway, at Salerno I also got a lot of parties in! The South American people really know how to make it fun! At this 'Camp' they were basically the cool people. I think the four Americans (including myself) were all wanting to be any other nation besides American. Yea, one lesson I learned abroad is that when it comes to the states, everyone has an opinion about them. Good or bad. The states are unlike any other country because we get talked about a lot! Just think about all the other country's, they are never in the news as much as the USA..... They just never have as much trouble as we do. Totally not fair. 

My point is that I wished to be Brazilian or something else. BUT I am not, I am American and I am very proud of that! No matter what, choose and love your country!! Tomorrow is 4th of July, I get to celebrate my independence with 1 other american. We are going all out because we have a higher sense of patriotism now! (+ we are alone) We are thinking about making a thousand cupcakes... Interculteral taught me that this year, I must stay by my country, because I represent them. When I return to America in 3-4 days, I will also represent Italy. I will be forever in between these two amazing countries. 

Italy + America = New Me!!!! <3 XOXO

| § | XOXO Brystal | § | 

Dying in the Sun!

With just a few days left (3), and July behind me, I think it's time to say what my life's been like! 

Italy Summer = EXTREMELY HOT = Tanner Brystal = Going to the sea a lot = being with friends all the time = taking the public transportation always = always broke = .... Wow I am an exchange student :) HAHA! 

If at the end of your list you always end it with "broke" then it might be because your an exchange student OR you need to work more.... For me it was the first! Probably the second too...! 

So yes, that has been my summer so far. Lots of time at the sea! Even more time with my friends! I have never been to the sea so often before... Ever! I like staying inside in summer as I burn so easily! Sunscreen just is my life savor! Without it, I look like a burnt piece of toast. So attractive right? Yea I know..... 

This summer I have also gotten my grades! I had to wait a while for them but I am glad I got them! I can now finish this year and not need to redo it. I also took a lot of photos with my school teachers. Speaking about teachers, my English Teacher planned a dinner with me, my class, and all my teachers. It was so sweet because I knew they were all there for me! That's a really good feeling about being an exchange student, your suddenly very important. Always. So I love my school really, and everyone in it. Galileo Galilei <3 

Other smaller things: I got to see Mary and Emi (Host Sisters) become models! Really, they were casted for a live ... Not sure what to call it? When they stand in the clothing like mannequins but also walk around trying to sell the stuff while talking.... Ok well I will call this "Live walk-o-sell. " It was a lot of fun and it did make be feel similar to a potato... Anything next to them makes me feel fat. Not like giantly fat, but defiantly not Italian skinny. Oh well :) I am American! Sporting my culture! 

A different night my sisters and I, with our Aunt went driving. She has a car without a hood.... Convertible. So we just cruised down the streets at full steam standing up. No big, except for hair problems after! I got to finally take a picture next to Lamezia's Castle. I guess it brings my experience to a full circle. The castle is the first thing I saw on google images in September before I left. So I remembered it. 

I should mention I spend a good part of my time trying to sneak taking photos with them all to put in a Photo Book I am making for them. #Selfie!! (With all y'all too!) 

Happy few days left Brystal and every other very sad/HAPPY/miserable/excited exchange student this year! 2013-2014 is a year to remember. 

Why? Because I changed. 

| § | XOXO Brystal | § |